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The smells, the fear, the adrenaline - I go.
Running forward.
My sword thrust forward - my enemy is faceless.
All around me the gunshots fire - I slow in my step - or is it just time slowing down before I complete my assault?
Nothing matters.
I push my thoughts away from there.
I hear the whirring of the helicopter blades, slicing through the air.
But I can still hear. I can still see what horrendous conflict is going down beneath, below on the muddy trails.
I am still fighting, still handling my blade as time speeds up again and down my enemy goes, joining the other ones fallen - friend and foe alike.
No - I sit on the edge of my bed now, wrenching my mind away from there again.
They say this happens to veterans, men of old age with post-traumatic stress.
But how can it? Their memory is much past their prime.
I'm only twenty three, but right now - I…I feel so much younger - my face buried in my hands, pitiful sobs shaking my body.
Like a child again.
I wish I really was - their innocence is such a treasure, a gift.
Through my eyes I can still see my fellow soldiers coming under fire - bullet holes showering their bodies - their screams, their cries.
They sent me back a week ago - away from the fighting, away from the horror.
Or so they thought.
I live the nightmare, no matter where I am.
Why do we fight this country?
No…why do I fight them? Why am I fighting at all?
Who started this despicable war?
And I trained them. All those young boys - I sent them to their deaths.
I run my hands through my hair - I feel the sweat coating my palms, my neck, penetrating my singlet.
My best friends are completely oblivious to this.
They ask, of course - but I don't dare say.
I would never admit - admit that I freaking hate this war, hate the carnage, hate very single thing about it.
So why do I fight?
Maybe - if I stop - I won't ever be able to pick up a sword again.
I fight to see this war end, or so I keeping telling myself - do I have another reason? An ulterior motive?
I doubt anybody would have a care in the world if I just stopped - just quit.
Never is there a single commending to my efforts in this pointless fighting.
It all goes down to him.
The hero - the face of the army - that man.
My best friend.
He's indifferent - he doesn't care what fame, what attention he receivers.
So why not give it to someone who would care?
The eternal question.
I mumble things to myself as I sit through another briefing.
They're sending me out again.
Back to the source of all my trauma.
Does anybody else suffer this way?
Constant flashes of the bloody warfare - my boys, my soldiers, clinging to life with their dying breaths? Their pleads, their cries - can anybody hear them?
Can you hear them?
Do you know what it's like?
You could never know - nobody ever will.
No one suffers the way I do - no one else could comprehend.
Today - today I'm going to fight again.
I sit with my head hanging - inside the helicopter.
I have no choice.
Fighting is the only option.
My boots splash against the sodden ground.
The smells, the fear, the adrenaline - I'm gone.
Running forward.
My sword thrust forward - my enemy is faceless.
All around me the gunshots fire - I slow in my step - or is it just time slowing down before I complete my assault?
Nothing matters.
I push my thoughts away from there.
I hear the whirring of the helicopter blades, slicing through the air.
But I can still hear. I can still see what horrendous conflict is going down beneath, below on the muddy trails.
I am still fighting, still handling my blade as time speeds up again and down my enemy goes, joining the other ones fallen - friend and foe alike.
No - I sit on the edge of my bed now, wrenching my mind away from there again.
They say this happens to veterans, men of old age with post-traumatic stress.
But how can it? Their memory is much past their prime.
I'm only twenty three, but right now - I…I feel so much younger - my face buried in my hands, pitiful sobs shaking my body.
Like a child again.
I wish I really was - their innocence is such a treasure, a gift.
Through my eyes I can still see my fellow soldiers coming under fire - bullet holes showering their bodies - their screams, their cries.
They sent me back a week ago - away from the fighting, away from the horror.
Or so they thought.
I live the nightmare, no matter where I am.
Why do we fight this country?
No…why do I fight them? Why am I fighting at all?
Who started this despicable war?
And I trained them. All those young boys - I sent them to their deaths.
I run my hands through my hair - I feel the sweat coating my palms, my neck, penetrating my singlet.
My best friends are completely oblivious to this.
They ask, of course - but I don't dare say.
I would never admit - admit that I freaking hate this war, hate the carnage, hate very single thing about it.
So why do I fight?
Maybe - if I stop - I won't ever be able to pick up a sword again.
I fight to see this war end, or so I keeping telling myself - do I have another reason? An ulterior motive?
I doubt anybody would have a care in the world if I just stopped - just quit.
Never is there a single commending to my efforts in this pointless fighting.
It all goes down to him.
The hero - the face of the army - that man.
My best friend.
He's indifferent - he doesn't care what fame, what attention he receivers.
So why not give it to someone who would care?
The eternal question.
I mumble things to myself as I sit through another briefing.
They're sending me out again.
Back to the source of all my trauma.
Does anybody else suffer this way?
Constant flashes of the bloody warfare - my boys, my soldiers, clinging to life with their dying breaths? Their pleads, their cries - can anybody hear them?
Can you hear them?
Do you know what it's like?
You could never know - nobody ever will.
No one suffers the way I do - no one else could comprehend.
Today - today I'm going to fight again.
I sit with my head hanging - inside the helicopter.
I have no choice.
Fighting is the only option.
My boots splash against the sodden ground.
The smells, the fear, the adrenaline - I'm gone.
...violence!
Erm, yeah. owO; This was the creative writing piece that I composed for my yearly English exam a month or so ago.
[I finally became bothered to type it up - fixed a few typos, added a few little bits, etc. xD]
I was inspired by a fanfic I was reading on the morning of my exam, actually.
So erm, as you might guess, I was thinking about Genesis the entire time. >:3
So while this is kinda an original piece, I decided to expand on how Gen would feel if he was suffering post-traumatic stress disorder [although...not quite ' post' xD] from the Wutai war. I quited liked how it turned out, actually - but it didn't go down so well for my English teachers. =__=;
They thought it was a poem.
And I had no intention of writing a poem. -fail-
[I mean, the paper even said 'do NOT write a poem', and so I was like, 'kay, fine! I won't!'. It's just my emotive writing style... T___T]
BUT NOW THAT I THINK ABOUT IT...
It was from Gen's perspective. Fitting enough that it should come across as a poem. XDDD
And and and my teacher also said the rhetorical questions were 'melodramatic'. AHAHAHA. Now that I stop to think, that's even more perfect! He has no idea about Gen, none at all, and he can still tell it's melodramatic - and we all know what Gen's like...
So yes - up until now I was pretty miserable with my mark [...11/15...], but I know to myself I think it's better than that and the whole poetry thing just cracked me up right about now. :3 ~
Oh yeah, the stimulus was 'alienation' and a picture of barbed wire. =o
Genesis Rhapsodos, Wutai (c) Square Enix ~
Concept (c) LIONEH. ME.
Erm, yeah. owO; This was the creative writing piece that I composed for my yearly English exam a month or so ago.
[I finally became bothered to type it up - fixed a few typos, added a few little bits, etc. xD]
I was inspired by a fanfic I was reading on the morning of my exam, actually.
So erm, as you might guess, I was thinking about Genesis the entire time. >:3
So while this is kinda an original piece, I decided to expand on how Gen would feel if he was suffering post-traumatic stress disorder [although...not quite ' post' xD] from the Wutai war. I quited liked how it turned out, actually - but it didn't go down so well for my English teachers. =__=;
They thought it was a poem.
And I had no intention of writing a poem. -fail-
[I mean, the paper even said 'do NOT write a poem', and so I was like, 'kay, fine! I won't!'. It's just my emotive writing style... T___T]
BUT NOW THAT I THINK ABOUT IT...
It was from Gen's perspective. Fitting enough that it should come across as a poem. XDDD
And and and my teacher also said the rhetorical questions were 'melodramatic'. AHAHAHA. Now that I stop to think, that's even more perfect! He has no idea about Gen, none at all, and he can still tell it's melodramatic - and we all know what Gen's like...
So yes - up until now I was pretty miserable with my mark [...11/15...], but I know to myself I think it's better than that and the whole poetry thing just cracked me up right about now. :3 ~
Oh yeah, the stimulus was 'alienation' and a picture of barbed wire. =o
Genesis Rhapsodos, Wutai (c) Square Enix ~
Concept (c) LIONEH. ME.
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The emotions are conveyed very well within this piece. It is a very well written story.